A brief soul story
Despite all the accomplishments -marriage, children, inheritance, family business, travels, planes, cars, vacations - there was always an inner nag. Nothing from the outside seemed to be fixing it.
Life doesn’t come with a users manual, so I was totally lost and slipped into depression, as I was hit by several events in my life and I became wounded. I searched for answers everywhere but in vain. I ended up at the psychiatric clinic with nerve medications. I knew that the drug is not the answer and can’t go on for life on them. I realized that I’m looking and treating the symptoms but not looking into the cause.
The fact was that there were so many outer triggers that slipped me into depression, however I realized that only my inner self can change as I had very little control to the outside events.
With good friends around I started to be guided to read spiritual teaching books. I read so many and from so many authors and teachers. The books and the knowledge helped a lot on the theoretical level but little on the implementation level. At a magical unplanned moment I met a random person in India, who told me about the Siddha path and Pal Pandian Sir in Tiruvannamalai.
I made the journey and met with PalJi along with my friends, and there it was: a new path of practices and putting the theories I learned into use.
We had to incorporate our practices into our daily busy life and learnt to surf all the terrains. I have to admit that this is not a journey for the faint- hearted unless you find the inner courage to embark on this path and tame all your demons. What a beautiful and rewarding journey this has been despite all the rocks, falls, bruises, uncertainty yet along came so much love, beauty, flowers and blossoms from within.
Learning to sit when chaos spins all around you and stay in the calm center is one of my greatest attainments in this lifetime. In short, the lion living in my head has become much more tame. I have always asked myself if I have found the path or the path has found me. No answer to this, yet feel very fulfilled , grateful and humbled.